many topics to address. patience is your companion this time around.
it seems to me that within everything you do not understand, therein lies the answer. thus, once you know the problem, you also know the answer. it is freakishly true.
we all "suffer" through these madness of uncontrollable misery, or whatever you want to call those bad day streaks. but the saying is true: pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. everything is a mental thing; you cause your own sweet misery. take for instance, a horrible day. you failed a test, forgot your homework, lost your wallet, and there's not much moral support you can lean back on. but at the end of the day, you get to spend some time with one of your closest friends, a person who understands and listens. doesn't that make the day ten times better? and to think, just before, you were having a bad day... or were you? maybe you thought you were.
sometimes, i wonder how i get through everyday. i don't say this because i'm depressed. no-- i say this because it really intrigues me how little we live consciously. iseriously think that i've gone through this week half awake. might as well have been, because i never stopped to appreciate it until tonight while i was watching the eclipse. and then i noticed how beautiful it was and how much nature gives us and how little we give in return... nature is so good to us.
speaking of the moon, who else got to see the eclipse tonight? wow... it was amazing.it was a rare occasion for certain reasons. it's not everyday the earth's shadow perfectly aligns with the moon, for one. but moreso because of the fact that there was one only five years ago. if you know the moon's phase at all, this is supposed to occur every ten years or so. the last eclipse was seen in february of 1998. five years. that's half the length of a normal interval. i don't know what to make of that, but that might be because of something. of course, i wouldn't know exactly what, but it's a different cycle than before. to add to this, joe tells me that in the past ten years, the moon has become smaller. in other words, the moon is getting further and further away from planet earth. the gravitational force will someday wither and the moon, of course, will not be seen again with the naked eye. but by then, all life forms will have become extinct. though not in our lifetime, just the thought of that makes me uneasy. no moon. no sun. no life. scary.
barefoot.
as i walk, only the waves can sway me,
only the moon can show me,
only you can comfort me.
sand between your toes,
like the thousand joys undiscovered,
so little patience to enjoy its soothing touch.
smell the salt in the air--
it reminds me of the dreams of yesterday,
reality of today.
copyright 2003 mai kozai
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